HAIZ ...my greatgrandma passed away ytd 11/3 at 7pm...
she was a fine lady. 102 years of age. wise intelligent friendly lady...
fell down one day suffered a stroke right after. was in the hospital ever since.
tht was about 4 months ago.
Doctors asked us to be mentally prepared. and we were...
but she was strong, she slowly improved her condition.
She could remember each and every one of us though her brain was 102 yrs old.
was then sent to the nursing home. and in and out of the hospital ever since.
at times. her condition would worsen. she doesnt even recognise her own children. couldnt open her eyes. couldnt speak clearly...
then just last week. her condition turned for the better. drastic improvement..
saw me at at a distance and called for me.
she said to me"ah, zha bo yeee arh, jing dua han liao.." and said something in hokien about keep the good work up for my studies...
i was so shocked. she seem so back to herself already. only thing she wasnt as mobile as b4.
and then it was time for us to go. i went up to her ear and said to her " tai ma, wa ai deng liao... gai chi zai like kua ler''
i know tht its not accurate hokien but.. yea. the look she gave me was unforgettable..
then just a few days b4, i had a dream about her..
tht she was all well again when we went to visit her..she could walk..talk. smile and joke about how well she has become.
then in the dream.. she led us to this other ward.. and said it was her friend she'd been visitin ever since she could walk.
and afterwards. i woke up..
then just ytd... my mum texted me sayin my greatgrandma had suddenly passed on...
and i stoned there for tht one min starin at the text..well being human... i cried a lil but i just couldnt believe it.. so i didnt think of it tht much..
i just had flashes of her in my mind.
she was the first relative close to me tht i saw once living and now pronounced DEAD.
today ... i attended this ceremony where she was placed into her coffin...
ARGH.
at first when i got there... everything wasnt done yet. they were just sortin out her things.. and the ppl who do these kinda funeral things were settin up the area where she will be placed.. and puttin up the shirt she last wore when she left this world..
OMG... im gonna cry again... haiz..
anw..we kneeled down as we saw her body get carried out from the lorry to the plank. it was literally a body wrapped up in cloth..
she was still soft..hasnt hardened...the process where she was being carried across everyone of us... my grandma srted to cry...and she sang as well...
my mum said during the olden days...old ppl like my grandma who were sad and heartbroken to the max will sing and cry when they lose someone they loved..
argh...
they changed for her.. and everything..
then it was the time when we went up to talk to her... haiz..
she looked totally different from how i last saw her.. those fake teeth.. fake cheeks... the powder on her face...
she looked like someone else..her mouth wasnt closed... ..HAIZ.. she just layed there on the wooden plank. LITERALLY. full body there.. not in the coffin or anything... i saw my grandma cry as she talked to her.. and helped her put on some jewelery..
then it was my turn...i told her:to go peacefully...not to worry anymore... i will take care of myself and my family.. i'll be a good girl...
and on a last note.. i told her to constantly appear in my dreams so tht i can still remember her...
OMG. IM CRYING AGAIN....
grr
my mum said i was lucky to have dreamt about her.. and the guy in my dreams... was actually one of her sons tht had already passed on.. and tht i havent even met b4 and YET, i know how he actually looked like...
to think tht this kinda things are unbelievable..i was wrong..
then many parts my grandma didnt allow me to see...
my greatest fear... i was afraid... tht my grandma couldnt handle the lost of her mother.. and tht she will fall sick soon...dear lord... do bless my grandma... she's another strong lady..
today was the last day tht i could actually see her. once she's in the coffin.. it'll be sealed up totally... no glass for viewin no nthin...olden day coffins.
my greatgrandma's wish was to be buried and not incinerated...and so her coffin was of better quality...
i think today will not be the only day tht i'll cry... my mum said.. prepare myself to cry like nv b4 on saturday.. where we had to follow behind the van.. and to see her get burried...
arrrrggghh...
i dunno wad to say... geez.
i came back home exhausted... tired. and i took a nap. till night i woke up.. found out tht my parents had gone for the funeral again..
well its been a long day...
long post...greatgrandma ... i miss u already...
and this song is for u...
take care...sorry ppl to have made u read this.
ta~
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 6:34 AM