with this last leap of faith.
i plunge.
gooodnight, goodbye.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 10:52 AM
I want you to hold me.
to shield me.
to tell me everythin is alright.
i want to depend on you.
to be able to cry in ur arms,
wipe my mucus onto your chest.
to have ur hands pressed on my head.
to have your lips on my forehead.
i wana be able to throw lil tantrums
but still get away with it.
i want to push you around,
then pull u in and hug you tight.
i want to say i hate you,
and then i love you.
i want you to give me space when i need some,
and come to me when its done.
i wanna be standing here,
and see you come.
i want to have a long day after work.
and see you there waiting for me,
though exhausted, but happy to see me.
i want to just chill anywhere with you
do nothing and just breathe in your presence,
your scent.
wanna walk funny down streets with you.
receive tickles from u
to have your arms around me
tightly.
securely.
I want you to back me up.
support me.
and tell me that im doing just fine.
to see that smile from you.
is more than enough.
reassurance.
to pour out my rants, my feelings and thoughts to you.
to pile my problems on yours.
to whine like a baby
finish, calmed down.
and be ready to hear yours.
i wanna be at the restaurant.
and just leave the ordering to you.
while i play with ur phone.
and take candid pictures of you.
of us.
i'll never wanna have to watch a scary movie by myself.
to travel, to explore, to visit alone.
i wanna be carefree.
worry free.
i dont wanna have to pray for a safe next day.
i want to tell the world.
that i am now, happy .
for the boy who made a difference in my life.
Arguments are inevitable.
we may have to fight,
maybe flip.
we may have to shout
we may have to cry
we may have to walk away.
but i'll always want you back soon enough.
wished arguments never continued.
wished arguments would die within the day itself
wished no feelings no tears got involved.
however,
no regrets. just lessons.
goodnight.goodbye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 8:01 AM