As if missing out on my first cousin's wedding wasn't enough.
Being present for my second cousin's wedding, yet was ripped off it just like that.
Bystander i am. Bystander i will be.
I know it's not right for me to have these thoughts.
I am glad and happy to help out. I am thankful for this opportunity.
I'm just sad that i had a choice to get involved in the fun and finally be in front of the lens for once, or to help out with the wedding shoot.
Every picture that i see in my feed. Happy beautiful faces. Glamorous dresses and fame for a day... i get envious and think.. i was supposed to be there to.
Just feelin like a loser. Having to hide in one corner and rush my editting while the others have time to be beautiful and take pretty photos while i look like shit.
It was a fruitful day..
just empty is all i felt.
Selfish thoughts. bad for health.
Goodnight. good bye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 12:32 AM