I guess, this is pretty much as much as it goes.
Just within a few days of havin me back.
The images/habits of what i wanted to leave behind already resurfaced.
To believe again is hard, when time wasnt long enough to tell.
It's either he change, or i accept.
from the looks of it.. i don't think i have a choice.
I will learn to accept from now on.
I can change myself to be more accepting.
Change my perspective
Change my thinking
and Change the way i handle and react to things.
If i chose this path, despite knowing all that has happened would eventually happen again.
Im guessing this is what i called upon myself.
I didnt know it would turn out to be the same this soon.
What do i do?
I just wish he knew.
That i gave it all i got, my last hopes my last bit of energy i have for us..
Please dont dash them away.
I am only fighting because i saw you fighting for and with me..
And now, i feel like i'm fighting to make things right by myself..
Baby. Please help me, please help us.
Didnt you promise me you'll try your hardest to give us a soft approach?
no frowns. no angers. no ignores.
What ever happened to talking calmly?
talking patiently ...
I miss that. i miss that particular you when i was away..
But now im here...
I wish you appreciated me more..
i really do.
or am i not worth your appreciation anymore..?
sigh
goodnight.
goodbye.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 7:24 AM