heyy all i know, that there are things racin in my mind, but i cant seem to recall what tough. its like.... im thinkin and thinkin and thinkin , about ... practically nthin really. =s anyway ... i spent the weekend away from home once again. went out with another 3 families to this place to skii/see snow.
oh dear.
beeen feeeelin kinda down still these few days.
not really in the mood to blog much tonight.
i had a dream. while i was in the hotel... it was about him. as in pj...
i dreamt tht he was kinda back at me again . and tht i had to go through EVERYTHING again.
i woke up shouting to myself. which in turn, had my highnesses woken as well...ops?
im glad tht it was just a dream.
i find it interesting...
at times. how i'd wake up from a dream feeeling '' WOAH !! thank goodness it was just a dream *pheww* ''
and also at times with the feeeling '' ahh goshh, why was it just a dream . grrrr''
just 2 nights ago , i had that dream again ..
yepp. tht recurring dream.
with tht same person in it...
i ALWAYS get pulled back whenever i start to forget and get on with life.
and everytime i wake up the next day ...
i'll take 20 minutes ... stonning ... askin myself.... WHYY. WHY did i have to wake up...
its kinda torturing ... to have things how you want it to be ... only when you fall asleep...
U know ?
i used to look forward to updates ...
be it by FB , msn PM's ...or blog posts...but somehow... not anymore ...* HEAVES HEAVY SIGHH *
alrightt ... thats enough of all the emoness.
when will i ever forgett....
ANYWAY.
dear called today =]
we talked for an hour and a half.
im glad she called.
its been a while since i had someone to talk to ...
i realised only today...
that i am really alone in this new place.
i mean .. like really REALLY alone ...
when i need someone to talk to .. who can i meet ?
no one really.
when im really lonely and i wanna go out.. where can i go ?
no where really...
when im really down ... who can i call ?
no one really ....
seriously ... i realised tht i am just by myself over here.
there are just some things... i just cant share with my parents...
yeah ive met new friends here. but ... i know. tht they'll be HI-BYE friends.
none of em tht i will grow close to ...
1.) age barrier
2.) language barrier
3.) topic barrier
tough.
SIGHHH~
sad case huh.
oh well. im kinda used to it i guess ?
just glad tht i still have honey li in my life.DEAR ahh ~
i really appreciate having someone like you in my life.
i really do.
to say i love you may sound a little lessie/mushy,
but i will still say it..
you're all i gott...
I LOVE YOU !! =))
and 
terribly ...
sigh ..
i miss my brother too ... alot ... alot alot alot.NICK OH . HURRY GET UR ASS OVER HERE AFTER SERVING UR STUPID USELESS NS -.-
sobs.
i feeeel like crying.
im feeelin so dumb now =(((
OH DEAR...
alright i shall stop here.
p/s something's aint right with my mixpod. can anyone tell me wad's going on ?
& to meet only through games and dreams ... ouch.
ta ..
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 3:39 PM