for the past 45 minutes...
i've been stonning at the conversation i had with a friend earlier...
what she said really set me thinking through the night..
somehow, i really really really wanna type out how i feel about certain issues...
but .. i cant ...
not here.
i just wanna explode. and blast into a million pieces and vanish from this world.
anyway..
i totally respected what ever she said...
but, here's how i feel:somethings...
are really beyond my control ...
i didnt ask for it to happen.
it aint the same situation.
and sometimes....i find it rather unfair.
i dont know why im being pointed at.
now tht it happened.
i was the reason he was emo...
he too, was the reason i was emo ...
u felt helpless tht he was hurt.
i too, felt helpless & useless tht i allowed him to get hurt.
he's lucky to have u as a friend.
u are lucky to have him as a friend.
but, not my luck anymore.
things didnt go right...
and sometimes i wonder.. is it really my fault ?
i dont know...
SIGH.
anyway... this was all in the past.
im already trying my best .
im holding back as much as i can ...
at least, feel for me will u?
but thank you for coming forward to voice out.
i admire how you handle things.
and dont worry ... ive learnt my lesson.
dont know if this post is offensive one, or a decent one.
hopefully u won flip.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
oh gosh oh gosh ...
sucky night....
i really wished my pig was here with me...
at least he'd hear me out...
SIGH.
anyway... i have another issue on hand now.
salvaging in progress.
im thinkin and thinkin and thinkin and thinkin...
and it kept me up all last night...
oh gosh... im so tired.
i need sleeep...
im gonna start school already man...
RAWRR ... what have i done??
im feelin so vexed. so confused. so all over the place.
what shall i do ?
& where were u...
ta.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 1:57 PM