(bare with me on this no point post, even better, just skipp it. i just wanna blogg it out to feel better)
GAAHH
feeeeling so feddup now.
why ?
cause its 15 of feb.
not the kinda 15 feb i expected it to be.
i totally anticipated this 15 of feb to come as fast as possible.
why?
cause i couldnt wait to get my hands on my NEW camera !
ive never felt this excited before.
finally owning something that ive been wanting for SO LONG and SO MINE.
so today has finally came...
i waited till 7 pm , when all the 4 pilots will come to my place for dinner.
and main point of the dinner was, to get my hands on my long awaited camera.
managed to mingle with them till after dinner.
and then, the moment tht ive been waiting for finally came.
excitedly, i took the camera and brought it into my room to check it out.
you should have seen my face.
i was grinning from cheek to cheek.
smilling all the way as i gently open the camera bagg...
and there i saw it.
my NEW camera.
but somehow. after opening it, i lost half of my excitement o.o
it didnt loook THAT new to me.
somehow, it gave me the feeelin ... that it was second hand . or has been used before .__.
i didnt know wad i was feelin at tht moment but i just suddenly lost it.
then.
carefully, i took the camera out of the bagg and after checkin it out for a while, i finally decided to press the '' ON '' button for the very first time.
then the lens protruded out.
kewl.
can you imagine how crazy i am about this camera?
then then, the lcd screen lid up and guess wads the first thing tht caught my eye?
the battery.
and thts when i knew, that i wasnt the first one to use it -.-
the battery was down to the freakin LAST BAR. ARGH!
i told myself... okay, so i aint the first to use.
FINE 忍 。
then managed to convince myself tht the battery was low cause MAYBE whoever usin it was testin if it works or not.
okay fine..... again, i accept. TESTINGS.
i was all calm and all... till i saw the pics in the camera.
dammit.
113 pics. taken.
YAH . no big deal. they were all pics of my relatives back in singapore.
FINE AGAIN.
so i slowly viewed each pic one by one.
i first saw photos of my cousin's family and her fiance.
i didnt really wanna make a big fuss about it cause he was the one who went through the trouble to get it for me. so tht im cool with tht.
i asked my dad. ' dad, did khoon quan kor kor use my camera ?'
and dad replied ' yah. he used it for some areospace expedition, suun bian test out your camera '
i was feelin a bit buei song already really ..
cause i REALLY wanted to take the FIRST shot with my camera.
ME ! ME ME ME ME ME! selfish me.
then okayyyy, maybe he HAD to test it out.
OKAYY FINE AGAIN.
then scrollin on .
i saw started seeing pics of my other cousins.
pics all taken at my GRANDMA'S PLACE
GEEE.
thts when i told myself.
forget it joy. GG to you .
once valuable thiings like this reach my gm's house...
be prepared to have faults with your camera.
it will no longer be new.
gahhh .. it really felt like double tee eff.
totally pissed.
but the pics made me feel guilty.
there was a video of my grandpa's birthday and short interview of the cousins , aunts and uncles.
GAHHH
i know i know.. I KNOW i shouldnt make this a big fuss.
they did it for me .
but i totally hate this feelin inside... the feelin tht ....
the camera has been passed around before it blooody hell reached MY HANDS.#$)%&$#^*#$$^%*@#$#^%^^&#%$!@#*)$^*$%!
effed up mood.
i totally sien diao by half.
feeelin tht this aint my camera.
i was already feeeling eff-ed up enough till ....I F******G SAW THIS CHIP-OFF ON THE BUTTON OF THE SHUTTER !!OMFG !!!! TELL ME ?!?!? HOW SHOULD I REACT??!
AND ON TOP OF THT. THE BLOODY STICKERS OF THE CAMERA WAS ALREADY PEELING OFF. GAHHHH . seriously.. i hate this feeeling. i wanna get upset but i cant. simple beacause I HAVE NO REASON TO -.- screww this mann. im so feddup with myself.. feddup of feelin this way . i know i shudnt feel this wayy.. but i wanted this soo bad...
tough its not a big problem but the feeelin sucks.to know tht it was already USEDD.800+ dollar camera was used before ME. ME ME ME. and the feeling will keep coming back. WHY ? because THE BLOODY SHUTTER BUTTON IS CHIPPED -.- so in future, with every press of the shutter, feeelin the chipped edge,HOW CAN I NOT FEEL FEDDUP ?! its like.... IMMM INNOCENT. I CANT DO A BLOODY THING ABOUT IT -.- ARGH. i dont know i just neeeed someone to tell me tht it was in good hands while at my gm's place. TELL ME PLEASE SOMEBODYY SO THT I CAN BLOOODY HELL FEEL BETTER. i cant help but imagine my cousins playing around with it.leaving it here and there or wadever... ARGH SCREW THIS -.- i seroiusly feeel like slappin myself. its mean of me to say all these.I KNOW. i might have offended some of my cousins...
but sorry. i couldnt help it. frgive mi.i dont really mean MEAN it but i mean some of it.i just wanted it so bad. wanted it so long. and wanted it so mine. sigh. i hate this feelin... i feeel bad about it. SIGH.im such a loser.... ive felt this way every since my moronic classmates cracked my specs.DAMM them . maybe thts the reason why im feelin this way.everything NEW , dont seem new to me -.- bloody specs were 2 mnths old. and the dimwits of my class HAD to play with the effin tennis ball in the class. and wam. GG to my specs. YAH i didnt managed to see who the culprit was but ive got friends who saw and told me about it.so just own up blooody bastards. arghh. thing is. i cant do anything about it... really absolutely NOTHING !!! and thts whyy im soooo pissed. IM SO GONNA MAKE THEM PAY OR FIX MY SPECS. two bastards not gonna own up then SPLIT IT. amongst all the guys then... not my problem . i just cant accept the fact tht i didnt do anythin but my specs got wrecked. and i have to USE my own freakin money to get it fixed. i seriously dont mind the crack , i can live with it. but i just wan those bastards to take responsibility of their actions.ARGH. assholes. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH EFFIN PISSED!! FEDDUPPP !!! SCREWWW THISS FEEEELING TOTALLY !!! @!$#^$%^$#^%^$%&@!# the only thing makin me feel better is my NEW tamagochi. at least its unwrecked. but i have no idea on how to use it. its all in jap. SIGH. why am i not loving my camera?how can i not love my camera?will i ever love my camera?i want to love my camera.but what is stoppin me from loving it?i kown this is totally lame but.anyone understands me at all?my selfish thought?is it bad?is it mean?obviously ... but someone?tell me please?that its only naturall to feel this way?
this is so dumb. m gettin all malfunctioned just because of a camera. sighhh second emo night. no, fustrated night. -its like, i just want another new camera untouched ='( ta.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 1:29 PM