the time now is 3 am plus ...

and i am not feelin too good bout things ...
problems ... unsolved ...

mood .. indescribable ...

SIGGGGHHH geeez man ...
is it my turn to be emo ? be an emo kid for life ?? more sadness than happiness in life ? you think ??

or is it just me .. only me, finding my own problems in life ...
i got myself into my own shit .. to where i am now ...

only you have yourself to blame when things go wrong ??
i guess that this is life ...

only you control your own shit ass life ...

one moment , one can feel tht life is so fkin vulnerable ..
and the next ..
you feel tht life is just plain worthless .. and hv no fkin idea to why you r even living in this world ....

yes life is full of shit ... and also yes .. life is full of wonders ...
two way roads ..

a road to happiness and a road to sadness...
to e able to chose ? yes obvious choice ...

but to be able to get there ? tough journey ...

so wad is life anyway ....
im being so random just typin out wadever pops into my mind at his moment ...

summary of life.

readers ... you may ignore wad i just wrote .. i just had to let it out ..
feelin better ? guess not ...

anyway ... update on my life ...
my baby hamsters r fine ... left two ... the only two ..
have fur .. gonna open thier eyes soon ...

saturday .. went out to florence bday ..

lost my pouch at pasiris ...
SWAY day ??

sway day for many ppl.....
anyway .

happy birthday florence ...

and happy birthday to wenjie as well ...

GOD ... i dont know what else to say ...
each night is an obstacle for me ...

to think or not to think ... just to think ... makes me upset ..
only when im super tired .. i dont think ...

so i guess from now on .. i must make myself so tired tht i dont hv the energy to think bout anything ...

startin from tml .. i'll be workin .. i will slogg my guts out .. at the same time earn money ...
i will get home .. i will have my dinner .. i will take my shower .. i will hit the bed .. AND I WILL NOT THINK OF ANYTHING!!!!
gosh man ... maybe life is better this way ??
to NOT THINK of IT ...

so tht you will not brood over it ?? be vexed over it ?? and cry about it ??

maybe .. maybe not ...
how do people even do it ... to get on with problems in life ... to be able to move on ..

teach me ...
somebody.. teach me...


aww god .. im so tired now .. i can finally go to bed ...




i'll blogg again .. see you.

This life dont last forever... LaLaLa & it ends here~ 11:25 AM