from now on.

i shall not mention anything about him anymore..
i shall not ever.

anything regarding him ....
its his fkin problem now...

even if i wanna blog out how i feel about him?
I SHOULDNT AS QUOTED. AND I CANT . AND NOW. I DO NOT WISH TO ANYMORE.

i dont know how long i can hold in this anger tht urges me to stay strong.

but i hope i will not fail again.

i will delete anything i can. just to stop myself from findin news about him..

if i cant stop myself from visiting his fb...

then i shall delete it..

if i cant stop myself from reading his blog..
then i shall not visit it...
un link it.

if i cant stop myself from seeing him online..
then i shall remove it.

and if i had to...
i would put aside or maybe throw away everything we had..

since he could do it... so can i .
why am i appreciating the memories when the other party isnt..

HUH. why am i being so dumb.

i see him online... i see his nicks.. i think ... i ponder... i wonder...
i see his facebook .. i see comments ... and i ponder on ...

i see his blog.. i see his taggs.. and i ponder even more...

i think .. i think alot... i think of the unthinkable...
and i believe tht for me its hard to accept ...

but i cant help it..

so the only way... is totally remove myself away from it...

tht way i wont get upset...
is this how its supposed to work ?

do i have to convince myself this way ?

that.

no news is good news ?

maybe...

thts now not the only problem i have now.
i guess its time to me to focus my attention to what im here for ...

vexed about getting into a sch ...
dad is stressing me.

he's being ridiculous at times...
sometimes.. to the extent tht i cant take it.

i really feel like shoutin it all out.
but i know i cant.

GAWD. i really feeeeeeeel like just taking and loong loooonggg nap and not wake up forever...



like really. fuck it.

and now i dont know if i will be extented or not my stay here...
like should i go find courses for future?

ir take it as a fun ride and learn french at the end of the day.
am i just wasting my life and all ?

i dont know !!!!! OMFGGGGGGGG

AHHHH.

VEXED.

This life dont last forever... LaLaLa & it ends here~ 11:43 AM