dam ..
ive used up my inhaler ...
n the old breathin problem is comin back once again ...
NEW problem in town to ponder over .... SIGGGHHHH
i just hv to ask WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY ...
SPAMS WHY WORD** WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY
GAWDD !! mood so fkin sian .....sigh .... geeeeez why am i sensitive... why do i think so much ... cant i have something to focus on ? yes i already hv .. work .. but still .. work dont exhaust me out tht i would hit the bed when im home and immediately enter lalaland ..
and my fkin mind is still wide awake and thinkin !!
GRRRRRRRR nthin to think about .. what is thr to think about anyway right ?? then what the hell am i thinkin and so afraid about ??
i think i am nuts thinkin so much .. but i cant help it .. i really cant .. am i insane ?? am i going crazy ??
NO I AM NOT !! I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO FKIN SETTLE MY OWN MIND ..
i hv to tame my brain .. its just toooooooooo wild ...
geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssshhhhh tame it tame it tame it ....i dont know whats wrong wit my brain honestly .....
is it because i had a bad fall when i was young ?
or has my brain been radiated too much ?
exposed to too much sunlight ?
serverly damaged?
dead?
the human mind... is so interestin .. yet so irritating ...anw .. enough of the nonsense... sigh ... how many more days .. 34 days ... makes 33 sleepness nights ... GAHH. k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k ... today dear came over to my place .. i was sleepin .. when she called i picked up .. and she said she was already outside.. wad a surprise .. i made her stand outside a while cause i had to change and brush up... then used the com to play the sims ... afterwards went to SSC to check out some things... she was interested in the cotton on sales.. but not much left ... bought a red cardigon .. then went to daiso ... DAM .. saw loads of things i would wanna get .. but dam sian .. not enough cash .. i honestly had enough .. but i HAD to save it for some other things i have to buy .. some electronics .. DAM DAM DAM so fkin broke... wanna do so much .. time is runnin out .. money is running out ..AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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AFTERWARDS WENT PASRIS TO SEND MY BROTHER OFF .. THEN WENT TO SEND SHU LI HOME AND NOW HERE I AM EMOIN BOUT NTHIN.. I DUNNO WHY I AM TYPIN IN CAPS.
IT MAY SOUND OR LOOK AS TOUGH I AM SUPER ANGRY AND MAD.
BUT I AM NOT AT ALL ...
IT VERY CONTRADICTING AND YET SO INTERSTING.
IM AM GOING NUTS I THINK.
YES I AM . JUST TRYINB TO DIVERT MY ATTENTION TO SOME STUPID ACTIONS.I REALLY THINK I AM CRAZY .. K ANYTHING .. I AM JUST HAVIN A BAD DAY.
I AM TIRED.
I HV WORK TML.
I WONT EARN MUCH.
BUT AT LEAST IT IS SOMETHING.
GOOD NIGHT.
ta
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 8:36 AM