hey all ..
today is the last day of julaiii .
went to dads cap today to celebrate national day.
one word. boring.bee . oh . are . eye . an . geewell .. first when we reached.. we settled down in tents or something... then a while later... the whole group of ppl went out into the field ...
we sang the national anthem ... followed by the pledge..
and heck .. they asked me to go up infront of everyone as the chosen 6 to recite the singapore pledge...
omg. so paiseh. they said tht i was above 16 so i had to go. but hello. i see so many above 16 but not there...
i was like.. nvm . get it over and done with.
dam retard man. lucky there was another
not-so-young-teen in tht 6
over and done wit.
the whole lot of ppl.
cake cuttin ceremony
made in france. WOOO~well the rest of the activities were too boring... all we did was to sit there and wait till lunch time.. god.
i was so bored. tht i started takin photos of kids...
and i realised singaporean kids over here in france all have the ABC special look.
sheesh.
i wonder if i will have it.. DO I PEOPLE ?? LOL
i like this kid. so cute i tell you the way she talks. ahhahah shes one of my neighbours !! LOL
and she looks alot like shan. HEEEE
this one is such a doll face.. she's the kid of the couple we took over as our new home.
ahhahahaha sweet baby boy. all he did was sit there and frown all the way..
cause it was too bright.
(can be my mums kid)
little angel.
anyway .. best part of the day. was food only. lol
craving for singapore's food.. dunno why ..
it looks so good. but saddenin. i couldnt taste much of it.. cause of my STUPID ULCER !!
CURSE U ULCER !!i had duck rice instead. just plain rice with sauce and ducks... kinda nice. tough these food in singapore i would nv touch . but here... singapore food tastes just awesome.
ANYWAY ... tml is saturday .. YAY.
gonna meet up with the whole side of my mum's.
with all the lovely cousins.. YIPPPEEEE .. all come tgt to celebrate my bratarrs birthday !!! WOO HOOO ..
i dunno how cool it'll turn out.
alrighty.
im tired from today.
i go catch some shut eyes.
ta~
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 3:08 PM
hey all ..
im feelin better.. thanks for all the taggs . it helped...
now lookin back at the previous post... i feel kinda retarded to have felt so lousy..
maye im okay now...
i just wanna give a BIG SIGGGH AWAY~
woke up pretty late today ... cleaned my room , make wind chim thingys ...
did some other things which arent important..
tht i couldn't remember..
today was cold...
had just rice with raw vege with sausage..
but i couldnt really enjoy my meal ... cause i have a huge ulcer near the mouth of the lip ... makes it tht much harder to enjoy everything...
saliva, painful , water painful...
my favourite sauce.... ketchup... a killer.
well uncle see hwa dropped by to exchanged car with dad...
really some cute car...
well anyway... ltr in the night..
uncle see hwa suddenly asked if we would like to see the pasar malam here in france...
so we said yes. and he was already on his way ...
so we rushed out off the house and into his car... along with JJ..
well its too bad my camera was flat. if not gosh.
the pictures would be amazing.
i do not know how to describe to you in words... really..
you gus should really see it for yourself..
they dont really sell things.. they do but not much to choose from...
then have long wide tents for beers bars and all. ....
they had many rides .. and seriously ... the place is so much cooler then genting.
AWWWWW REGRET !! REGRET !!! should have charged it earlier..
i so wanna share with you guys ...
guess it was not my day ...
im sure there'll be more to come... as in we'll probably go visit again once more maybe nxt yr...
but first experience is always best . SHIT IT.
anyway .. well im back here...
i gotta sleep early tonight...
cause i'll be going to me daddy's camp tml morning...
to celebrate national day. singapore national day ..
brought forward..
i have no idea wads in store... but oh well.
hope its fun.
i'll tell you guys all about it tml..
good night all
ta~
P.S spider bite on thumb! darn. now i have a fat thumb.
AND
i bought a mood ring at my first visit to the PM here in france. =]
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 2:57 PM
oh gawd.
another night has passed.
i lost my inspiration to blog...
sigh..
mum heard me cryin myself to sleep last night...
i felt at my very lowest point of life...
and i have no idea why....
i just feel very alone...
once the lights are out...
emotions kick right into me...
and
i HATE IT.
i fkin hate this feeling of being so alone....
i cant sms...
nor can i use the fkin com....
and even if i could....
no one will be there to talk to me..
why?
cause everyone's asleep...
if i were still home...
i could sms anyone at anytime...
at least i knew... tht i was never alone...
to recieve a reply,
is so heartwarming....
but here..
all i can fkin do is stare at the bloody phone...
who needs a phone when you cant fkin use it?
im so sorry for my crude language...
i know...
in time to come..
i will get used to it...
i woke up this morning feelin horrible...
made myself tea and sat at the dining table...
mum in the kitchen...
pops up the qns.
mum: joy, heard you cryin last night... why? recieved bad news or anything?
i told her....
i just felt lonely ...
im not used to the sudden '' limit com usage ''
or the
'' you cant sms anyone policy ''
she replies.. tht she doesnt want me to sleep late thts why she gives me curfew time ...
i said...
i know...
i just ...
i gave a big sigh...
my eyes started to get watery ...
i tried to hold it in...
but i couldnt..
i didnt wanna break down infront of her
but...
i did....
and i went into my room to cool off...
i couldnt stop crying...
not because of the curefew thingy...
just emotions...
but mum thought i cried cause i felt tht i got scolded.. i dont know ...
well .. i sat outside my window door...
tryin my best to get a grip...
but thoughts of last night...
didnt help at all..
tears just kept coming out.
goddammit.
i just miss many ppl tht are so important to me..
tht made a difference in my life...
sigh..
tht they are always around me whenever i need them...
life is different here i suppose... it needs to get a little use to...
i calmed...
and i went out.. told my mum... i'll get going washin e carpet. where's all e things..
mum sat and starred at me... '' whats the matter ... ''
i just said...
dont ask...
i went into the garrage and continued..
i dont know why
i couldnt stop at all..
i felt tht my eyes are just fkin water pipes..
its already so tired from the previous night..
yet i strained them again in the day...
got a grip ...
silently washed the carpets... helped out a lil...
and mum said she could cope...
tht i am allowed to use my com...
i got to use my com for quite a long time today...
maybe she was shocked tht i broke down infront of her...
well in any case...
i felt better later in the day...
i dont know wad else to say...
its a super wordy post...
and im still feelin super emo ...
cause its night time ...
and once again...
i'm all alone...someone promised me.
tht he'd be here tonight.
but where is he now
i dont know.
i guess
im still all alone.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 1:48 PM
heyy all. today's a two day post. i lagged a day. cause i was too tired last night.
SIGH.
dunno wadeva for. but SIGGHHH.
anyway..
ytd was hectic day.
for me, hectic, for some, enjoyment.
i packed my whole room all by myself. how intelligent is that?!
its tough . sweeping shifting , building, holding, cleaning, wiping, organising, arranging.
so much .
i designed the arrangment and positions of my own room's items and furnitures.
neatdo.
well this is b4. (i'll show u after in nxt posts to come)
messy shit hey ?
anyway... took a few things out to sun. including my lovely polar bear..
animal abuse ?? polar bears arent meant to be in the sun. heee
and ytd , sun a scorchin hot !
look at my mum :
FULLY PROTECTED~
well .. new items in my room~ my new daiso lamp me mum bought for me. how sweet.
she left the nicest one for me. YAY
lol . packed halfway. went out to prepare lunch. fried wedges. and nuggets. had lasagna.
lovely ball of fire~
i hate frying. the oil just attacks you. GAH.
must have shield*
mum helped out a lil joy : mum quit frowning !
mum : i cant help it ! the sun is forcing me
joy: you look so fierce !
mum: what to do? its so hot ? i have to squint my eyes to SEE
mum: hurry joy! take over , its too bright, if i continue squinting my eyes, i'll lose my double eyelid !
joy: *LOL*funny. she sill look like some china women without her double eyelids.
well ate afterwards..
went out to the backyard to visit my friend. THE CAT.
did i tell you ? my parents didnt like it coming into our house. but i always allowed it in my room secretly.
two night ago, my mum caught it inside my room, and i was forced to shoo it away. GAWD.
i chased it out to the backyard ...
AND IT NEARLY ATTACKED ME !!
like wow. maybe it thought tht i was her friend. yet i shooed her away. i tell u .
i was -------------------> <------------------- this close to being scratched.
hollay shit .
then days to come. i didnt dare to get too close to it. GAH.
well ... afterawards i had to continue packin me room ....
unpacked two of my boxes filled with rubbish. dug out old letters , magazines.. photos. LOL.
so many things to discover . i knew i wouldnt have the time to sit down and read such things in singapore...
so i bought it all over with me ....
here are some pics. lol bringing back so much memories.
in case you all cant see , i've circled up some of the ppl from marsiling sec..
some faces might be familiar to you ??
inside : shu li , jia yi , ME , jia gek , alson , wei xiong, sufi , johnny. euegene.
inside : rong bin, jia yi, johnny, wei xiong, ren jie, sufi , ME , shu li,
jia gek, alson, eugene.
i was so facinated by all my little things...
all my presents as well. those i recieved at my farewell and at the airport.
i cant remember all ! too much ! sorry if i have left you out... MY SINCERE APOLOGISES ( pls tell me if i did )jin teng- thx for e lovely notebook
chris, wendy, lihui and friends - thx for photo frame n e lovely photos!
mei hong and friends- ths for keychain shoe and head band
jeslyn and rach- candy shooter
suwei jie2- scarf
err yi- pimple serum !! LOL
jia and shan - hp strap ( jia - lovely notebook )
nick oh and WHOLE FAMILY - thanks for tht super sweet notebook
sean n family- thx for stitch !
lihui - unique notebook
shu li dear - those sweet little many items.
yan jiao- stitch wallet
yi fan- for the little noted in a bottle!
ming hong and gang - nike bag
sengen - pencil box
yao zu and gang - rose
jin- for everything
thx all for the cards you wrote me - SQ , MR and alllomg i cant remember who esle ! cause it has been 2 weeks already. IM SORRY but i really appreciated all ~
i feel so bad.
anw. dad came home shortly afterwards. then prepared dinner and went for a walk !
pictures ! we met so many cats today :
this cat looks like a picture. lol
this cat playing peek a boo with me
huge house just down the street.
random flower. dunno fafa's mum will plant this in singapore.
if so, then we have much more in common. LOL
anyway.. at night. self time.
im gonna show u guys this photo of my parents . candid. and they are so gonna kill me if i upload this on my blog... but what the heck right?
how bad can it be?
here ! enjoy !!
their tv.my dad says tht my mum looked like some mad women. look at her hair... makes her whole head look THAT much bigger.
OPS . didnt mean to upload it.
thts all for ytd ~
ta~
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 2:23 PM
heyy all~
today woke up pretttty late...
at about 2pm ??
well woke up to messy hair.. tangled hair. GAH.
bad hair day..
ANYWAY...i remembered wad i wanted to blog today but i totally forgotten wad to write..
DAMMIT ~
brain capacity failing ~~~~
erm erm ... wad happened today. aite. more packin more fixing and bla bla bla. nthin interesting really.
house starting to take shape. yayy ?
we have almost everything we need for a home...
cept.
tv and a stove. two very importants things tht are missing from my life.
so here's our tv and tv console.
yepp.. like thts it.
right there... our mini tv(s).
all the mini photo frames.... now from today onwards.. we shall sit on the sofa and slowly, survey frame to frame across the console.
explaining every storey behind each picture. LOL
URGH MAII GAWWD RIGHT ?
i agreeeee. my parents say.. even if we DO get a tv, wad the hell would we be watchin anyway ? no english, no subtitles... NOTHING.
oh well ~ make do with it. all i need is my lovely laptop.
kkkkk wad did we build today? well we built another TV console !! lol
i was the map reader ! the orderer ! the boss !
lol instructed me dad to fix this in this direction tht in tht direction. hee heeee
i feeeel so powerful !!
so after we set the whole thing up, all we needed to do was to place in the glass plates
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MY DOINGS !!! LOL LOL LOL LOL
all i can say was OPPS. and
HENG SAII I DIDNT CUTT MYSELF ~
niahahahahahahahahahahaahh
glassss everywhere ~
but seriously i didnt break it on purpose. it gave way when i held it !! not my fault okay ?!
then dad helped me clean it up just a lil~
had to clean up the mess myself afterwards...
hmmmmm thts the most interesting thing tht happened today. lol
afterwards. went slackin then had dinner .. yay herbal soup.
food from singapore tastes exceptionally good here in france. i wonder why.
then helped dad wash e car and went out for a walk. i dont know why im so into walks nowadays.
check out the car...
can say its FULL OF SHIT !! LOL
sun setting at around 10 pm?
interesting flower aint it ?
went to middle of railway track again. lol DAREDEVILS arent we? LOL
well my dads not in most of these pictures ... why ? cause he claims tht he's hair is ugly .. but it looks the same to me ... lol
anyway.. i'll still post some of him up. heeheee
just look at him... so shyyy~
awww*
well interesting shot of the day~
ahahhahahahahahahahhaha
i know i look weird in da pants. but LOOOL i lazy to change... heee heeee.
aite thts all... today i didnt get to talk to jia. how sad...
i miss you cousins~
here lemme post some of us
yeppppp ussssssss.
sobs* no more of this for 2 yrs.... anyway maybe even after 2 yrs..
they will think camwhoring is Lame. its so kiddy.. awww thts so saddening...
hopefully not !! cause i believe, it runs in da blooooood~
kk said too much. CURFEW !!
yepppppp CURRRFEEWWWWWW.
let me spell tht to you allseeee . you . are . aff . eee . double you
DAM LAME SHIT I TELL U !! CURFEW STILL ?? IN FRANCE ???
OH PLSSS~gimme a break.
lol
k ta~
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 1:21 PM