I cant help but replay the scenes of France in my head.
and it makes me sad :(
someone take me home?
bonnenuit, aurevoir.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 1:59 AM
12 hours.
see you then :)
goodbye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 7:20 AM
Just 4 more days.
goodnight.goodbye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 5:09 PM
not enough.
gooodnightgoodbye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 5:46 PM
i'll be right back
goodnight,goodbye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 5:51 PM
Hey blogger!hey people! how y'all doin? (:
please excuse me for my previous oh so random post.
it just got to me, just like that.
I CANNOT CONCENTRATE OMG.
THERE'S A SECOND VOICE IN MY HEAD NOW GRR.
okay silence.
RIGHT so, just gonna post somethin to update this little place.
ahhh U SHUDDAP.
okay good.
(gahh im tryin my best to focus here)
well anyway, just yesterday, i made a short clip and would like to share it to you guys.
just some yodda life :)
ive always wanted to do vlogs. but, im not really cut for it ahhahah
cant really have face time on camera. for u know why.. LOL
right right. so anyhoos.
lately ive been recording heaps on vids . cause its really now or never.
i should have recorded more durin my stay here but, lifes like that.
we tend to appreciate things more knowin that we're gonna lose them.
:(
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Aieee. okay seriously i cant concentrate on bloggin on.
will update again soon!
i shall go dream of feedin my own kind now.
GOODANIGHTGOODBYE
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 2:38 PM
Heyy blogger.
I THINK IM ALRIGHT.
Maybe just not tonight?
:(
Feeelin kinda blue. knowing that i havent got much time left in france.
where as i sit comfortably now... would be taken away from me in a week or two..
EVERYTHING.
i wake up from my comfortable bed.
to the lovely weather
with the morning sun over me.
i wake up to beautiful greenery.
to cheerful birdie chirps.
i walk into my big bathroom.
and brush my teeth next to my big window.
i tell the mirror that today's gonna be awesome. ytf.
i walk to the kitchen to grab a drink.
and head back to my lovely room.
i sit at the edge of my bed, close to the window , to warm up to morning sun.
i update myself abt the world with my touch.
i prepare some food in my cute kitchen. and i watch by the window, my neighbors and their kids gettin ready for school.
i take my food, sink into my couch. and i eat.
i wash my plate in my big shiny white sink as i look out through my kitchen window.
on tuesday, if im lucky.
i get to see handsome garbage men takin the trash out for me.
i find things to wash. and bring them out to the front porch to sun.
i notice the dog's greetings. and i walk out towards them.
i throw sticks over hoping they'll fetch. and they dont.
i dilly dally. pretend to do things while i smile to myself just cause im in a beautiful house.
i decide to go for a jog. and to the beach i go.
i change, and do my stretching on my front porch.
and i set off. to see a new day.
i jog. i greet people. i jog faster when i see competition.
i jog, even faster towards my end point.
and i arrive. at the lovely lake of cazaux. i stroll, and catch my breath while admiring families
having fun at the beach.
i take a turn. catch my breath, restart my time. and i go.
i jog. and register the peaceful scenery before me.
i see familiar faces. the same joggers .
i reach my destination. and i walk a round. i register. i return evening greetings.
i see, i see mums and dads returning home from work.
i see, lil kids playing along their own private streets.
i see, old grannies watering their flowers.
i see, my beautiful neighborhood.
i take it in, i register. and i tear up.
I SEE THE SUNSET.
i look up to the sky. and thank god for my life.
im close to home. i stop to greet the dogs.
i stay by their fench for 5 mins. just to have an eye talk.
i build a connection. and i say goodbye.
i enter the gate. and smell delicious home cooked food.
i reach home just in time for dinner.
i set up the tiny wooden table. and bring the dishes in.
As a family , we eat, and enjoy a short film.
im done. and i get ready to bathe.
i enjoy my shower. i like my bright spacious toilet.
i take my hoodie, as my pajamas. all comfy.
i take a moment and stand by my room window,
to watch the stars shift, as i dry my hair.
i bend over, to smell my pot of sweet strawberries.
and eventually, i turn on my comp, and give up my night.
ive lacked much in my words.
ive got so much more to include.
i wished my vocab was more powerful.
i wished i had writing blood.
im feeling emotional. ask why?
because. all these. will be taken away from me soon.
where i sit now. where everything's still in place.
where a room is still a room.
there's this scary thing called time.
and time will pass u by.
the digits and hands move so quick u'd be surprised.
another night another dawn. soon. this place would flip.
big brown boxes would block pathways.
and before you know it.
a home, becomes an empty house.
i will move. to where you call a hotel .
and where i'll absorb the last days of my stay.
and before i know it. i'll wake up one day, back to my real life.
i'll open my eyes and wake up from this long and wonderful dream.
and i will eventually face reality.
but how long will i hold i dont know.
what will be in store for me i dont know.
where do i go from there i dont know.
what happens later i dont know.
:(
I SHOULD HAVE APPRECIATED.
i did, and i still am. more than ever.
but its not enough.
this life, its never enough.
is there another me somewhere out there at the other side?
if she does exists, i'd feeel so much better.
time u can never get back. its all happening. this is not a dream.
the clocks are screaming at me.
what do i do :(
so much yet so little time.
im dreading. im not ready.
im scared . and im missing this already.
im sad.
i should have.
but i already did. enough.
why.
whyyy am i aware now. its harder that im older.
ive learnt to register. pro-cons.
i'll yearn.
and i'll know it'll never happen again.
it might.
but it wont be the same.
tumblin. learnt.positivity.
at least i had it. enjoyed while it lasted.
its a bonus. live without.
PLEASE.
PAUSE.
FOREVER.
Dont wanna wake up.
fool myself.
gooodnight.goodbye.
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 3:48 PM
goodnight, goodbye
LaLaLa & it ends here~ 5:24 PM